Decipher

Here you will find my thoughts, my feelings on various subject mattter, and the language of my heart. It is here that I try and decipher my own heart and find it at the end of a long free write where I let my stream of consciousness travel. Not everything can be put into words, I’m afraid. It’s the looks I give, through my eyes I give it all away in a glance. All is fear, the fear of the unknown next, the unknown tomorrow. There are only two days a year that I can’t get anything done, yesturday and tomorrow I read someone say. It’s true.

The pools feel so heavy with thoughts and feelings when they sit on the lower lids of my eyes. The drops are dense with memories, just lived and almost present. I am barley able and failing to hold on to the tears as they begin to spill over onto my cheeks.

R.I.P. Tiger Bear

 

Iridescent beams

The product of our lives is discovered in the journey through which we embarked upon, out on our own, choosing along the way the part we wanted to play. The power to decide our state of mind, the yes’s, the no’s.

My spirit is set on fire for the Lord. He has made me whole, holy, seaker of the one truth. Dear God I am living proof, there is something more than the surface. Something more to love than a guilty pleasure, more than fleeting pride, sin, and reckless pursuits.